Autumn
Autumn. А feast for the eyes. People call it death. Death of nature, death of the year. But look around you. Do you see any despondency or sadness? No! Bright palettes, iridescent play of colours - scarlet, amber, gold, orange, green, blue!!! The colours of life, hope for life. Endless and renascent life.

PS and the irony is that all of the beauty, this endless azure autumn sky, so beautiful, so pure, these rainbows of colours, and sun, and trees, and breeze and life … all of this is OUT there while I’m IN here…
I always thought that people really confident in themselves do not have a need to justify their actions. They do what they think is right, appropriate or good and do not make up the excuses or explanations for that, they do not care about your opinions.
Hello! How are you? Haven’t talked to all of you for a while… (as if anyone actually read this …)
I’m relapsing in SPN again :((( It is not even funny. All 6 seasons all over again… I have no time for anything. It is New Year soon and I haven’t fulfilled my 2011 New Year’s resolutions to HAVE A LIFE!!! So finding out about Tumblr was probably not a good idea ;)
There is Sherlock, SPN, I can already feel the urge (and it will only grow) to re-watch Doctor Who from the Rose … AGAIN! Some times I begin to think: is this all that is? Is this my life? Only this? Some complete devotions to imaginary characters, their not real lives, their on screen relations, problems, their mythologies, worlds … Where I never will be, NEVER!
Yes I understand that it is an escape from the reality, for it is too boring, uneventful and predictable… Finish the school (check), graduate from the University (check), find a job (check), get married (check), have a kid (check)… what next? All planned, all fulfilled, what’s next????

Though I do not celebrate Thanksgiving, I’d like to say what I’m thankful for this year.
I thankful to find Tumblr and all you guys!!! Thank you for making me feel not like some strange lonely girl with obsessions but like a part of something bigger, call it fandom, call it friends, call it family! All I know that you are closer to my soul now than people I’m surrounded with in the “real life”. I LOVE ALL OF YOU!!! THANK YOU!!!

THE MOMENT WHEN I FELL IN LOVE WITH JENSEN ACKLES…

Right there, after this small scene in the Gag Blooper Reel from Season 2.
If you are so gentle, soft and quiet in the real life, sir, I love you.
I never cry in movies. I laughed in the end of Titanic. I’m often spoken of as a very cynical person without heart. But when Bobby said: “Idjits” I wept … literally, like burst out sobbing…
They’ve lost everything and everyone. There is no turning back. And now I actually can not see any happy ending for either of brothers… This will all end in tears, I just know it.
Now I hate everything, therapy with a lot of Jensen Pics, First season of Supernatural (where everything was so simple) plus “Yellow Fever”, “Changing Channels”, “French Mistake” and lot’s of chocolate is NOT HELPING :(((
OK, I’ve planned Ten Inch Hero for the Weekend. It has a happy ending, right?